Am i racist to my own kind?

sorry for writing so much....So i Am Mexican/black.... my great grandma was a full black. then she went to mexico and married a mexican had children and one of those children had me. (my mom) so my mom is half black half mexican born in mexico... my dad on the other side leads up to sicilian and spanish ancestors. his family is light skinned and colored eyes... exept HE didnt get colored eyes... wich makes me mad. out of all of his bbrothers and sister only he and his sister came out a dark with brown eyes... so that mixture made me a little dark skinned.. not tooo dark just a tad bit darker than beyonce but lighter than witney huston ... with super dark eyes.. almost black looking. so anyways i look Indian ... like from India... and my mom looks black... my dad looks hispanic... now i mean i love mexico but mexicans have been racist to me.. they call me black and all these different kinds of names.... since they are lighter skinned... black people are nice to me...but i dont want my children to come out any darker than I... so i dont plan on having children with black people... i love black people just not to marry one. and stuff.. also Mexican people are mean to me they call me Indian and everytime someone sees me they always say "i thought you were indian when i first met you" they never think i speak spanish. i understand the reasons why mexicans come to the U.S. but with these new profiling laws in Az. and in Ga >where im currently at< if u look hispanic you get stopped.. wel my mom and I dont look hispanic and get hit on a LOT by black people. and my mom a LOT by white people. but i act mean towards mexicans. say mean things like " hahahahahhaah too bad you look straight up mexican Indian... Meaning like mayan and Aztec kind of indian... nd when they aask me bout the law i answer" well since i look INDIAN AND BLACK they wont stopp me, but they will stopp you" so umm i hate mexicans when they do their marches and complain about this country.. but umm they never even try learning the language.. they have to do their customs here.. this is america.. if you wana be here at least learn english. my dad doesnt want to learn english and this makes me super mad because i NEVER want to translate and wen he gets mad i yell at him saying" well its ur fault , you never wanna learn english but you expect me to translate ??" my mom speaks it more and understands it but doesnt like to talk it that much... so she pretends like she dont speak ennglish unless she really needs to. so am i racist agaisnt blacks and mexicans?? i dont EVER want to go to mexico... my family and I are legally here in the US because my dads family is very socially and financially great! we used to come here for vacations and stuff but then i decided to study here...i came here when i was 7 and i havent left ever since... im 16 nnow. help me stop being racist to mexicans. and sorry for writing too much..